"Basta pangit, masama ang ugali!"

"Basta pangit, masama ang ugali," this is the famous saying from my dear friend, Robbie.

With a few experiences on encounter with some "pangit," I can truly attest to this. It's always true that real beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it comes from within. I believe that all God's creation is beautiful and we're just making it ugly, so we have to be careful in our words, thoughts and deeds.

For me ugly people are those:

...who doesn't care and is not sensitive to other people's needs and feelings.
...who brags a lot about him/her self.
...who thinks about herself and prioritize only her condition all the time.
...who doesn't care and true to him/her self.


Basically, these are the people who doesn't know what RESPECT is all about and definitely, they're the ones who are not having a good laugh with family and friends everyday.

But aside from a good skincare and make up, evaluating your own attitude and actions is a good way of staying beautiful and fresh. Always laugh, keep in mind how blessed you are, discover or learn something new everyday and just like what my friend Mark is saying "Good Vibes" to everything!

...but if you'll ponder on it, ugly people are good to keep because they indeed add thrill and fun to our journey!

First weekend of the year.

My mind's on my BDJ planner. I'm thinking of the best cover to use for it to preserve its too girly cover because I'm too obsessed to it. I'll look for a good one tomorrow because no matter how strong and wonderful something has been made of, it needs a cover or a protection for a slower depreciation.

Just like the human body. Maybe it's time for us to shield or take it away from anything that's making it deteriorate easily.

Well, definitely, watching "Tron" in iMax is a good sample of human body protection. Haha. It was really amazing! My favorite shot was when old Fynn was telling stories to young Fynn and the camera rolled and got inside the room. I seemed to be in there. Haha. Well, that's the magic of today's cinema.

I suddenly missed production.

Veyda

I was surprised when I was drinking water and saw my "inaanak" on TV. So pretty, talented and smart! She's very charming and friendly. I am really a proud ninang. Haha. She's very talented and smart. Anyway, she'll be competing in Star Circle Quest Kids Edition, so please vote and support her, Veyda Inoval.

No yoga with cousin for tomorrow, I'm hoping to rest, pray and play.

According to Cris, he would like to try being a Vegan even only for a month. really? haha. Goodluck! "Mahilig kasi ako sa laman," according to him.

It will be a busy week!

I will rock 2011!

On the first week of the new year, I've heard people saying "Now, I'm starting the year right."  Hopefully, it's true. Hopefully, all throughout this year, we'll see many people doing the right and good things.

2nd day in the hospital
&diagnosis was still vague.

Just like last year, I started my "new year" with pain. Haha. Literally, 3 days before 2010 ended, I was admitted to the hospital due to Urinary Tract Infection. The pain lasted until Wednesday, and now, I'm continuing my Cranberry juice diet to normalize the ph in my urine.  Oh well, thanks to the Internet and my Ate Ronnie for this information! Haha. Well, I just have to remind myself all the time to drink lots of water, use cotton undies, urinate if needed, no acids, caffeine, citrus and alcohol. "No Alcohol?!"-->

Oh no! Hopefully, I'll be okay soon! =)

But I know I'll rock 2011!

all-smiles Caparros team!

On the first day of the year, I was too grateful to spend the day with all the very few yet important people in my crazy life! I miss my cousins already!

We celebrated the first day of the year with our usual BINGO Galore with our relatives. Mom was the only lucky one to win! But I really enjoyed the non-stop storytelling of everyone while non-stop eating Dear Darla.

Tita Carol: "Ang Caparros, maliit, pango ang ilong, saka maitim."
Cyra: "Parang pag sinabing Caparros, ako ang image model Tita ah!"
Tita Carol: (speechless. Haha.) "...ahmm...kaya dapat ang pipiliin nyo ay matangkad, matangos ang ilong at maputi.

LOL. But maybe if I can't endure waking up beside him but he has 3 Jaguars and 2 Lexus, we can think about it. =) Haha.

When I got promoted as a Client Services Team Leader on the 4th day of 2011, I knew, I JUST STARTED THE YEAR RIGHT AND I'M NOW STARTING TO ROCK 2011.

Have a blessed and fun year everyone!

That's why I love talking to Jaymee.

Some year-end thoughts of Jaymee that I too much love.

*Money can't buy class, a diploma doesn't mean smart, and influential surname doesn't equate breeding.

*Even if it's your favorite, you can't have fried chicken everyday because if so, it will no longer be special. Same goes for life. It can't always be rainbows, butterflies and happy times. Darkness has to be experienced to appreciate the light.

*Never underestimate people. The ones you thought who will less likely to deliver the goods could actually be the one to set you on fire.

*You were born an original, don't die an imitation so be who you are, do what feels right and fuck what society dictates.

*Too many boys, not enough men. It's self explanatory. Sad but true. And a lot of women agreed. EVIDENCE: Bulk of comments when posted on Facebook and Twitter.

*Typical Insekta. This is what a friend and I call the fair-skinned, long haired, slender, doe-eyed, soft voice and giggles, "helpless & naive" looking girl that Filipino men see as girlfriend material. I still don't get this one. I find most of them insanely boring or pretentious virgins. ("Chupa? Um... what's that?") OH PUHLEASE!!!

*Jennifer Anniston. If someone as hot, successful & famous like her is having trouble keeping a man, is there still hope for "normal' single women out there?! Good luck.

*Society. Fuck what they impose and fuck what they think. Each soul should be allowed to walk the path it chose without judgments.

*Bubble Burst. Sometimes it's best to shut up and enjoy being high on your own. Telling it to someone jaded is so NOT a good idea even at a desperate time to share the happy moment.

*Women Replacing Men. Some great, single, straight female friends confessed that they are already considering saying YES to lesbian suitors due to hopelessness on men. Sad to know that men are falling short on their duties that women are considering options that are NOT in their DNA.

*Lovers Tonight, Friends Tomorrow. My favorite song from Dave Matthews Band. Is it possible? It's complicated because someone will end up wanting more... unless if the sex is hot and the friendship is not or vice versa.

*The Serenity Prayer. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference." The best prayer I've ever heard. Direct to the point, no religious hypocritical blah blah. If prayers are said like this on Church, short but sweet, I'd go to mass more often.

*Tend My Own Garden. In Layman's term, mind my own business. I'm doing it and others should too. It's normal to sneak peak once in awhile at what the neighbor is up to out of boredom or curiosity but being at it like an obsessed fan of a soap opera is a dangerous sport.

*Forgiveness. If someone asks for it and seem to mean it, give it. A boy I had a bad blood with from college passed away a few months ago and I only forgave him on the same year. Had I not done it or waited longer, it would've been too late & guilt would be eating me alive right now. So forgive because you'll never know.

*Available quality men are endangered species. They're either taken or gay. The ones left behind are illegal (way too young) or damaged goods. So if you meet a decent, mature, smart, stable, presentable guy who's single and treats you well, call the Endangered Species Hotline and box him out! TAKE ONE FOR THE TEAM!!!

*Worrying Over Nothing. Some women have the tendency to worry too much. It's actually just a waste of energy. One way or the other, the answer to your question will pop out. If it's the answer you want, good. If not, deal with it and come up with a fix. Easier said than done though.

*Do not insist yourself on people. If they like you, GOOD! If not, GO. Next please.

*One size fits all. I don't believe in such a thing in terms of how to live life. We all have different stories & journeys to go through. Just like clothes, you can go for the one size fits all but you'll end up looking like everyone else and chances are, the fitting ain't perfect. If every book has it's own unique story, what more with every soul?

*Formulas. Problems in real life are not like algebraic expressions where a formula can be used to solve the equation. There is no such a thing as a right or wrong formula. Only an intuition that leads you to do the right thing. Most of the time, we ignore it though. But after all is said and done, we end up saying "I KNEW IT!!!"

*Outlet. People need this to battle with loneliness, low self-esteem, broken-ness, or other human issues. It can be in the form of too much (or too little!) eating, drinking, shopping, bragging, drugging, Facebooking, sleeping around, and other forms of vanity-related addiction. Others are in denial by submerging themselves in their careers by becoming a company slave or so called religion by claiming that God is working on them when in truth, is using God's name as an escape boat. An outlet done sporadically is normal but as a habit could be quite hazardous.

*Trade Off. As my brother said, there's always a pro and con to every life you choose to lead. Don't pick the one where all the benefits are good. Get the one where you can tolerate the down sides.

*Every single girl in her 30s' nightmare is to be stranded in a social function filled with couples giving you the "Poor single you!" look and trying to think of someone to set you up with as consolation. I HATE THAT.

*I'm on gray area... gradually becoming exhausted with the single life but not quite ready enough for "cohabitated" domestication. Let's see if black or white prevails.

*It's a mortal sin to forsake girl friends for a new found lover or long time boyfriends. As Belle de Jour said, a man usually doesn't ignore his friends for the sake of a shag. Women shouldn't too. Remember, friends will be the one to pick up your shit if things don't work out.

*There is nothing harder in life than to be happy for someone else... especially if they just got what you've always wanted and dreamed of.

*Pity those girls who use motherhood and married life to validate their existence.

*Short and sweet quotes from SEX & THE CITY SEASON 1. 1) It's strange to see the life you never had flash before your very eyes. 2)Normal is the halfway point between what you want and what you can get. 3) A strong desire can overcome the biggest fear.

*A temporary occurrence like adolescence can be called a phase but immaturity in adulthood is considered a pathetic lifestyle.

*There's a silent war between the marrieds and the singles. It's about winning the WHO'S LIVING A HAPPIER LIFE AND GETTING A BETTER LAY Award.

*Do not make a career out of something that you will never do for free.

*Favorite quotes from author Belle De Jour. 1) Sexy is being pulled together and comfortable in your own skin. 2) Nothing hath charms to soothe the wounded ego quite like alcohol and flirtation. 3) A little of what you fancy always does you good. 4) I know about having a place for someone in your heart. That's where they go when they don't have a place in your life anymore.

Ninoy as a President: NO!; Single: YES

I’m thinking of sleeping early tonight, maybe 9pm is a good idea, but I think I’m too pre-occupied of so many things around me and quite a few things that happened to me for the past weeks. My mind’s like a balloon that will explode any moment from now because of too much helium and several circumstances are still making efforts to put more of it and maximize the space of the balloon. Simple.

I just checked my livejournal, facebook, multiply and Friendster account and realized that I haven’t updated them for long. Maybe it’s one reason why my mind is full…too full. Maybe I need to write something about some things lately.

My stand in “Ninoy as President” is a NO. I believe that there are so many things to be done.  Just like Inscrutable, I must agree with Gary Olivar, deputy presidential spokesman of PGMA, who asserted that Noynoy must be "his own man." It's true, if Cory didn't die last month, they might not think about Noynoy as a "President." I mean, I'm not against Noynoy but hey, this is a big risk. He should know that he has a very minimal proof of his competency and he really indeed has to learn and prove a lot to deserve to be called as "President." Alright, I’m not hardcore in the field of politics, I had a taste of it but I’m not updated anymore. I’m now just like any other Filipino who works 5-7 days a week and would rather spend the night talking and drinking with friends than scrutinizing each and every person in the political arena. But with that lifestyle, I represent most of the Filipinos, and that means I have the right to say that I don’t think that Noynoy is incompetent but he still has to prove himself to be the RP’s president.

I miss running, dancing and yoga. Good thing I have my cousin with me who never fails to help me prioritize learning new poses and yoga disciplines every weekend.

 I’m now living independently in QC during weekdays and I’ve got new friends and have more time with old girlfriends who used to be teasing me for being too busy and good for not attending gimmicks. Haha. I love them. I’m single (for those who sent me PMs asking if it’s really true, yes, it’s true and don’t tease me for being one because I’m enjoying it) but I’m dating from time to time. But I’m not in real hurry though I miss having someone to care for and to tell how my day was. I receive messages from a few guys asking for chances but hey, I just can’t really be unfair to you, everyone matters and what you feel matters to me so please stop acting like I said that I’m really falling in love with you because I was just being nice to you by replying to your messages or answering your calls and it disheartens me knowing that you’re planning ahead because you thought there is “US”.

This is the saddest part, when you’re not into a serious one, and trying not to get too attached and someone just took your ‘nice’ actions into something really serious that will break hearts. I want to touch hearts, teach minds and transforms lives…but I always want it to be positive…a growth for everyone. Well, I show it if I like a guy but I make sure that there’s an alarm whenever my actions show the “WE CAN EXCLUSIVELY DATE” sign. It’s not that I don’t want to be in a serious relationship but I just don’t think that the timing is right and I still have doubts with the person…maybe.

Just recently, I think I like someone. Given a chance, I would love to be called as his girlfriend and leave the good single life I’m having right now. Hell yah, I’m saying this! Whaaat?!?  Haha. But this is the hardest part, when you started with no strings attached then you’ll realize one day that you’re too trapped in the routine and just can’t live a day not knowing how he was. Well, I still can endure this actually but I don’t know if we’re both scared to be in a relationship or just testing the waters. I don’t want to figure out whatever is happening or whatever it is that we have for each other, I just like this feeling because I last felt it eons ago. I JUST LIKE THE FEELING OF SMILING FOR NO REASON AT ALL. I’m not in hurry, it’s just he’s the best guy at the moment, and there are several actions that make me feel that he wants “US” but …. I don’t know what’s the but. Well, enough of this. Haha. I’m just in the wonderful idea that maybe, I’m on the first step of falling in love again. Haha. Anyway, I don’t think he knows that I like him because I’m talking about different guys as we talk. Hehe. Wrong move. Well, maybe it’s a good thing, diba?

Tomorrow is my IJM anniversary in ABSCBN. Thanks Gwen for reminding me, we used to be together in this but I know you’re happy now. I’m happy at work, but not fulfilled.  I’ll have a good day tomorrow!

You should know if the person is worth it because the fulfillment in true love is worth the wait. And it feels good to be accepted and cared for always…but the best part is when you smile with no reason at all and everything seems to be right.

Greenwich tayo! Haha.

Starting a week.

I had a wonderful weekend with family. Dad bought me a new shoes and we had a sensible talk, he's my man. I'm missing mom since I want a power hug from her because the transition and adjustments at work's a bit killing me. Maybe mom and my former EP is right...i should learn the system first before beating myself up for my self-impost standard that I didn't meet.

I was forced to donate in Greenpeace last Friday by Melvin. =

)Peace!
It was actually a supeeeerrrrr overdue goal already, si Melvin lan

g pala magiging reason for me to finally achieve it. Thanks thanks! I lost my booklet pala re Global Warming, can I have another one? Please update me.(I miss you Aya, you're studying culinary n daw! good luck!)

I saw this in Just G when I went to southmall. kudos! 

LET'S PLANT MORE TREES and help save the climate!

Well, I worry about all the contacts in my old phone...my old number still rings and I don't know the reason why 'that' person keeps it. Maybe because it has 1k load when it was lost or 'the' person cannot find where the sim can be removed or maybe my contacts. I have contacts of actors and actresses in it...even mediamen.

Okay, back to reality. So now, I'm working on 3 stories...and my biggest story is about a mom who needs a make over. Do you know one?

This week will be wonderful!

just a sudden happiness.

July 2 thoughts:

I have a new black peep toe wedge shoe that was impulsively

bought in Alabang Town Center last Sunday and I'm happy about it. Yipee!

But what make me happiest are my "photo with our thesis" (thanks Dust kahit pinilit kita and im sincerely sorry that u didnt find ur thesis. hehe.) and my new Starbucks tumbler which is made with 81% total recycled content, 28% post-consumer recycled content. hehe. i took a pic of them together. yihee. There are just some simple things that have big impact in a person's life.

July 12 thoughts:

I suddenly felt happy. Everything's just right and in its place.=) i'm being patient and it doesn't happen all the time. He's with me, that's why. 

I want a good tan on a rainy day!

For what happened lately, I just felt numb. Well, I saw it coming but I was too insistent. I have several thoughts in mind and my mind is restless...

too much restless. I'm uber stressed but I won't let this happen again:

(I don't know when was this taken but I'm perfectly sure that it was also the time that I coincidentally sit beside a snatcher...thrice. I was too pessimistic.)

 

So I'm just quoting a good friend and one of the most intellectual woman I know---Jaymee for the following indispensable thoughts:

...that patient people are the hardest to find nowadays. Everyone just seems to be into the whole "instant" generation... instant food, money, job, relationships, sex, what have you! Whatever happened to the sacrament of waiting? Doesn't a home cooked meal that was prepared for a while taste way better (and a lot more nutritious!) than an instant noodles? Isn't waiting for the right career or the right person so much more worth it than settling for any available job or a one night stand? I may be guilty of being impatient at times but I still remind myself that "Good things come to those who wait" and I couldn't agree more.

...that "Honesty is hardly ever heard. Everyone is so untrue." (As the song goes!) I don't understand how some people find pleasure in deceiving and manipulating others. How can they sleep peacefully at night? It just makes me wonder why they can't just be true to the world and to themselves when in the end, the truth is bound to be discovered anyway. I don't know why some people don't want to admit they have flaws. What are they scared of? Nobody is perfect anyway. We all have skeletons in our closet. But owning up to it makes a whole lot of difference... it gives you a feeling of peace.

...that when it comes to romantic involvement, the men who just keep talking will never end up walking. I have learned to observe what they do and not listen to what they say. Talk is so darn cheap! Following through with action is the true acid test.

I believe in Miley Cyrus: There's always gonna be another mountain, I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be an uphill battle, sometimes I'm gonna HAVE TO LOSE. 

I'm too much happy with my girlfriends. I enjoy our super long intimate talks over a cup of coffee and I'm looking forward for more of these! 

I love you girls.

Just when you're numb.

Sometimes, no matter how blessed you are with a lot of people who loves you, you just can't love them back right away because you're too tired to do it...not because of a single person but because of several pains you've gone through. Then, they'll be gone. Then, you'll realize that you're having regrets...but in reality, you shoudn't have... because if they're true to their words and feelings, they'll STAY no matter what... until you're fully-charged and your ready to start all over again. You just can't give yourself to a person if you're not complete..it would be unfair and no one deserves it.

So, just when you're numb and insensitive, take a time to breathe and pray. =)

I'm currently studying Spanish while sleepy. haha. I'm dying to box and have yoga everyday.

"So, pwede nako Cy?"

Let's see.
*wink*

This will be a wonderful week! mua. Take care.

Usapan sa "matatandang" baso.

“Wala man tayong magagawa sa sitwasyon dahil may sarili na siyang desisyon, ang mahalaga malaman nya na may tumututol sa kanyang desisyon.” Siguro nga, ito ang ugaling nakuha ko sa tatay ko. ..

...Hangga’t kayang ipaglaban ang pinaniniwalaan kong tama; hangga’t kayang intindihin at ipaintindi ang mga bagay-bagay sa mga taong maaapektuhan ng mga ito; hangga’t kayang lumaban, lalaban. Walang maliit, walang malaki para kay Daddy...lahat ng aksyon may epekto, lahat ng kasalanan may kaukulang parusa. Diskarte at disiplina. Sabi nga niya, kahit na di malaki ang pagbabago, kahit di malaki ang impluwensya mo, ang mahalaga, narinig nila ang nasa isip mo at napaisip sila sa sinabi mo... maaari ka nang nkaimpluwensya kahit 5% non... Sa maniwala ka’t sa hindi, nag-iba na agad ang resulta dahil don.

Simula pagkabata, (lalo na nong naging SK Chairman ako) nasanay na akong makinig sa mga usapang baso—kwentuhang madalas ay galing sa puso at tunay na hangarin.

At sa mga pagkakataong ito ay may makulit na inumang nagaganap dito sa bahay habang nagkkwentuhan kaming magpipinsan. Nakakatuwang pagmasdan sina Daddy, Tito at iba pa nilang mga kaibigan habang masayang nagtatawanan at nagaasaran. Ang sayang makitang masaya sila, nakakalimot sa anumang sinasabi nilang disappontments at frustrations nila, inaalala ang mga masasayang alaala. Naisip ko, sa pagtanda ko, gusto ko din ng ganito...(parang si Juday lang) kahit 80 katao lang matira sa dinami-dami ng kaibigan at kakilala ko, basta di sila aalis, tatanggapin nila ako kahit na anong mangyari, at magkakaintindihan kami.  Kailangan nating lahat yon, sabi nga ni Mother Theresa, the greatest malady on Earth is the feeling of being rejected and unloved.

At habang nagtatype ako nang kung anu-ano lang, humiga na ang mga cute kong tito at mga kaibigan nila, mayamaya...

“Nagdadasal ka ba gabi-gabi? Nagsosorry ka ba kay Lord?”

“Di ako nagsosorry.”

“Magsorry ka muna. MagSorry ka muna.”

“Nahihiya ako.”

“Sige na... Una ko kasing sinasabi eh...”

“Alam mo, matagal akong tulog...”

“Ikaw? Kailan ka lang nagising?”

“Ahmmm...”

“Gising ka ba ngaun?”

Sabi nga ni Willie, mas mabuti ang magbigay kesa bigyan, ang masaktan kesa manakit, ang malamangan kesa manlamang.

Haha. Hindi ko alam kung may patutunguhan pa kami dito pare-pareho basta alam ko, almost 3 days akong may lagnat. 38.5 ung una kong temperature nong Sunday. Hindi ko alam kung H1N1 ba ang virus ko o labnat daw o talagang may dengue lang dahil tuwing gabi pabalik-balik ang lagnat. Haha.

COMMERCIAL: 

Happy birthday Mommy! I love you! Mua. Please stop greeting me every 5th. hehe. 

Advance Happy Mother's day! You're the best mom and my best friend kaya wag mo na po isipin un ah.

“Minsan sa ating buhay, meron tayong mga bagay na hindi natin nakikita kaya kailangan natin ng iba para makita ang mga ito”— mula sa  aking Tito Hector habang tinatanong nya kay Daddy kung asan sya at sinasagot naman ni Daddy ng “asa Baguio. Asa Pampanga.  Asa Talinting.” At kung mahal mo ang isang tao, sasabihin mo sa kanya kung anong mali at pangit sa kanya dahil may concern ka, yun ang sabi nila. =)

When suffocated, you just need to give in.

The Bottom Line

Trust yourself -- you will be able to recognize an opportunity when it comes along.

In Detail

The romantic rejections you've suffered in your life have been painful, but they have taught you valuable lessons. You're a much stronger person because of what you've been through and you have a better idea of what you're looking for. Now more than ever, you know what you want, what you need, and most importantly, what you will not tolerate. Trust yourself and know that you will be able to recognize a good opportunity when it comes along.

Officially the last day as 21.

Today is officially my last day of being 21.

I just can't believe that tomorrow I'm 22 already. And as what Mj told me, my nirthday should be the most important day of the year because it's the day that I was born. *tears* I'm glad that with that statement he seemed to be too thankful that I was born *kilig*. But unfortunately, I didn't prepare anything for that special day.

I just want Red Ribbon's Smores cake.

And i'm gonna eat it later with my most-loved couz, Zha, when the clock strikes at 12.

I just wanna be with my super miss na miss mom and sis...but I cant.

I thought I'll spend the day with dad but he's home (at Lopez, Quezon). *teary-eyed* Wish I was there also.

Well, I love to spend the day with my MJ. And I will tomorrow.

I have that hobby of jotting down all those who greet me on my birthday with time, so I'm thinking of doing it again this year!...later. Hehe. 

I was reminiscing my past birthdays a while ago, and I just realized that my past two birthdays were too memorable.

2006: I celebrated it with Aillete under my favorite Orion's belt in our house's roof, with pizza. Then, Darren showed how he appreciates me.. It's memorable cause I too much love stars and Orion's belt. And I love aillette cause she appreciates the smallest details of me. She's one of the best friends i've ever had. Darren is a good friend. Some things are not just meant to be... And I'm happy that he accepted that. *wink*

2007: I can say that it was the BEST. Best efforts made by my angel, Mj. He drove me home (Quezon) and let me spend my day with my most-loved family. It was the most memorable gift that I had ever in my life. Thanks for that dude. Pag naaalala ko, super happy ako. nkasmile ulit. hay...

I just received a call from dad. Mom, Tito Eddie and Kuya Jodel greeted me. It feels good. I love life. 

I'm excited for tomorrow.

*wink*

 

Note: the bouquet with heart is made by my budz, Glenn and was given to me on my birthday last year. Thanks budz. i miss you.

No to no goals.

Sometimes, if you don't know what you really want forever, think about what you truly want for the meantime.

Well, I don't want to encourage people to decide prioritizing short-term goals but I think it's best than not having goals.

right Arvee?

Shao Shao.

I'll not deny the fact that I don't truly love what I'm doing or what's happening with my career right now but I opt ot say that I'm proud of my short-term goals.

I'm on my 3rd month as a production trainee and I just reached my top short-term goal this month. Silly and wonderful things are in my mind...but a business with mom and dad's on top of the list. yey! i love it!

How we should live life.

My godfather sent me these tips. Some of the things in the list sound so used, but they're honestly the right thing to do.
c'mon!

Live life to its fullest.

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day.
2. Sit in silence for at least 30 minutes each day.
3. Sleep for 7 hours. (10 to 5)
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Play more games.
6. Read more books than you did in 2007.
7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
9. Dream more while you are awake.
10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
11. Drink plenty of water.
12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
13. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
14. Forget issues of the past.  Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past.
     That will ruin your present happiness.
15. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control.
     Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
     Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class
     but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
17. Eat breakfast and lunch like a beggar, and dinner like a king.
18. Smile and laugh more.
19.. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.  Don't hate others..
20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
24. Don't compare your partner with others.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Forgive everyone for everything.
27. What other people think of you is none of your business.
28. GOD heals everything.
29. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
30. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
31. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
32. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
33. The best is yet to come.
34. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
35. Do the right thing!
36. Call your family often.
37. Your Inner most is always happy.  So, be happy.
38. Each day give something good to others.
39.  Don't over do.  Keep your limits.
40. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it

Spare time is genuine.

Since I started working in TV production, every spare time seems to be genuine and I'm loving every second of it. 

I miss loving what I do.
I miss being motivated.

Normally, my sched is:
      Sunday: preprod meeting
      Monday-Tuesday: taping, preprod (Tues afternoon)
      Wednesday-Thurs: Taping, preprod (Thurs afternoon)
      Friday-Saturday:Taping

Then, it'll be: EVERYDAY, 6am-12am (digitizing, scoring, editing) since I will be assigned to editing now and my partner will be assigned in taping. Yea, better sched? And yea, I'll miss Marc Abaya. haha. (you know it! i have a crush on him since college and he was still a VJ. cute, hot geek!). Well, i'll be less tired but still sleepless...and will be dead soon. haha.

In what I'm experiencing, creative people suffers from irregularities.Promise! Artsy people are just so brave and flexible. We are abnormal and adventurous. Then, soon, we'll be fed up with irregularities... when we get older...older and poor.

Getting Nonsense.

Go away gobbledygook!

Well, i just realized that I know how to ride a bike last week when Hannah and Jao (Mj's young siblings who are on vacation) encouraged me to ride a bike with them when I visited them. And believe me, it's a wonderful discovery. NEXT TIME, I want to discover/ realize that I know how to drive already. haha. 

I MISS MY FRIENDS and OUR TALKS.

I want to study Latin, French and Spanish.
I want to study Law.
I want to have a Master's Degree.
I'm thinking of working in an Advertising Agency.
I want to travel abroad.
I want to love Mj more. hihi.
I want my College yearbook.

Can I have a long talk with my Couz, zarah?
Well, a little time with family and friends is enough for now. 

We can do something for Tara.

Reposted from my cousins, Katchie and Malaine.

Joee is my cousin and we are really affected in what happened. Let's help Tara..let's help my cousin, Joee, and their families.

Word spreads around fast and almost everyone has already heard about what happened to our dear friend, Tara Santelices (Assumption Antipolo’s Batch 2003 and Ateneo de Manila University’s Class of 2007, AB Political Science).

On the eve of her 23^rd birthday, Tara was shot in the head during a hold-up while riding a jeepney along Imelda Avenue, Cainta, Rizal. Joee Mejias, who was with her at that time, rushed her to Amang Rodriguez Memorial Hospital in Marikina City. The parents of Tara and Joee arrived at the hospital shortly thereafter. When morning came, Tara’s parents finally decided to transfer her to the Medical City, Ortigas Avenue, Pasig City. Since 8:00am of August 6, Tara has been in the ICU fighting for her dear life. Her parents have decided not to push through with the operation.

Although it might seem that there is nothing else that we can do but wait for Tara to wake up from this horrific nightmare, we, the friends of Tara, have decided to raise funds for Tara’s hospital bills. This is the least we can do to ease the unbearable pain her family is going through. We have been given the go-signal from Tara’s dad, Tito Larry, and here are the details:

The temporary bank account is under Anne Marie F. Santelices, Banco de Oro, SA 2140-062201. For direct cash donations, please proceed to the ICU Waiting Room of the Medical City (Ortigas Avenue, Pasig City). Please look for Joee Mejias or Lila Santelices.

Any amount will be gratefully accepted. Anonymous donations are also welcome. Please spread the word. Forward this to your family, friends and even to everyone else you know. Please post this on Friendster, Multiply, Facebook and wherever else you can think of. Please send group messages on Yahoo Messenger. This will mean so much to us, her friends. 

Please continue praying for Tara, for Joee and for both of their families. If you want to come see Tara, visiting hours at the ICU are at 9:00 am to 11:00 am and 5:00 pm to 7:00 pm. 

Thank you so much for your time and kind consideration.

For inquiries, please contact Joee Mejias (09228154987) for calls and Jac Ledonio (09167243071) or Myka Francisco (09163695148) for text messages.

My former boss said "good job!"

I sent a message to my boss's YM account upon seeing him online. I just said "How are you?"
Then we talked for a while.
Since we didnt end up good, I remained too casual and a bit rude.

Then...
pma pma: aimee... WELL DONE ON YOUR JOB
Cyra: thanks.
pma pma: SO HAPPY FOR YOU BECUASE I KNOW ITS WHAT YOU WANTED
Cyra: yea...and just like before, i'll do my best for a job well done...and for d company im working for
pma pma: BYE FOR NOW
Cyra: thanks
Cyra: anyway, im glad you spelled my name correctly now! haha
Cyra: bye
pma pma: BYE

I want to have a new life now. Haha.
God knows, I want to forgive but never forget cause I learned a lot.

Life will never be happy with those "unhappy" thoughts.

My life is starting...
...RESTARTING NOW.

thoughts. thoughts. thoughts.

My gradeschool teacher said that we have to put a period to a group of words that states a unified thought, for us to indicate that ‘it is done’… ‘ENDED.’

Same with feelings. In some ‘special’ situations. =)

But sometimes, even if we KNOW the right thing or the ways to END it, if the carrying out of the solution comes, they simply vanish one, two or three at a time.

He visited, and everything seemed ‘to be continued…” *sigh*

Public affairs seem to be the discoverer. In a way, Entertainment seems to be influenced by public affairs already with the truth they've discovered. Then, Entertainment makes masterpieces with that truth to make it known to people...for them to put it to practice.

Makes sense.

When you’re in Public Affairs, the downside is everything has to be factual..so you have to work hard to look for interesting issues to address. For commercial reasons, you have to be very keen in research to look for a unique story. In Entertainment, you have to be creative and imaginative. Well,  both are hard if you’ll think about it.

What if you can’t find an interesting story?

Or what if you can’t think of a more creative plot of a series?

*sigh* I’m feeling down. Too much. My self-esteem is getting low. 

Nasa bahay ang puso ko (super mushy entry!)

Home feels good, always. And Easter Sunday brings HOPE, always.

Sabi sa text ni Lloyd Luna, author ng “Is there a job waiting for you?” and “Do you have the life of your own?”…EVERYTHING ends up alright. If it’s not yet alright, then it’s not yet the end."

Maybe that’s why I’m feeling uneasy these days, madami pang hindi “alright.”

But I’m glad that I’m starting to bring back the missing pieces in my self…in my life, the one that was broken and took me months to fix. Good thing, my dreams didn’t fade. Now, I have hopes. And I still have Him to be intrepid.

I missed living my life. Now, I have a clear path to walk on, true people to hold tightly, and a “never-get-tired-of-Cyra” God to be with me all the way. It’s true that you’ll know the true ones during adversaries, not just anniversaries. Hehe. (I’m trying to be humorous, deymn the rhymes. Haha). And when everything’s done and when you’re left with vague choices, you’ll keep your faith and hold Him tight in prayers.

Funny. Totoong nkaka-degrade ang pagiging bum, and then everything follows. Susunud-sunurin ka nang pahirapan ng lahat ng aspeto ng buhay mo. Then, you’ll feel helpless and empty. Parang back to zero kahit alam mo naming hindi. You’ll reach your lowest point. You’ll cry at maaawa ka sa sarili mo. Pipilitin mong isisi sa iba’t ibang bagay o tao sa paligid mo ang mga nangyayari. Dadating ka sa punto na sisihin mo ang kurso mo at ang malawakang palakasan at diskriminasyon na nangyayari sa iyong masusing paghahanap ng trabaho. Dalawang bagay ang pwedeng mangyari: tanggapin mo ang trabahong hindi mo gusto dahil kailangan mo nang may maiabot na pambayad ng kuryente at makalipas ang ilang buwan ay balik sa pagiging unemployed ka uli dahil di mo matagalan ang trabaho o hintayin ang gusto mong trabaho (na di mo alam kung gusto ka rin o kung talagang gusto mo yon) at tumaas ang posisyon makalipas ang ilang buwan pati na rin ang sahod, benefits at tatawagin kang “Ma’m” o “Sir” ng guwardiya na bawat dumadaan ay yon ang tawag nya.

Everything will be alright.

Hay. Buti na lang may pamilyang di nang-iiwan.
Buti na lang may mga tunay na kaibigan.
Buti na lang kahit na madalas problema ang boyfriend, at lagi daw ako nakakasakal kaya wala ako laging surprise, makita lang siya, parang kaya nang labanan ang mga kaaway at sakupin ang buong mundo.

Ang totoo, natatakot ako sa mga susunod na mangyayari…

Takot ako.

Pero kailangan kong harapin. Baka pag nadaanan ko na’to, kunwari na lang di ako duwag, tuluy-tuloy na ang ligaya! Yehey! Hay.

Help me Lord, please.

Are MEN out of the world? Or it's just US?

     I actually just moved this entry from my Multiply blog, and upon reading the entry again, I realized that there were a few good comments. Time flies so fast.


Last week when I was at home, I had a long chat with some of my girlfriends. And there are lot of things that we don't "get" with men.

• When guys impliedly air their level of insecurity with the relationship like "Alam kong dika sanay magseryoso, pero seryoso ako sayo" or "Baka lokohin mo lang ako ah,"we, girls, think that you want us to reassure you that we're serious about you and the relationship. But if we're showing you how much we love you, by consistently caring for you, asking permission from you regarding some stuffs, doing or wearing what you want and permanently registering in unlimited texting service, suddenly, you'll scream "I WANT TO EXPLORE AND FIND MYSELF. I'm losing myself, nakakasakal, I need space."  Where will be our next stand?
• Why can't you admit your mistakes and when someone exaggerates the story, you'll blame and accuse us for being so talkative on things about us, but in reality, we don't say a thing?
• Why are you having a hard time saying SORRY? And most of the time, assuming that we "got" it already? Are we Madame Auring or MAdame Curacha to discern if you're really sorry or just pretending to be?
• why do you get mad with our "kaartehan" in front of you but when we do it in front of others, you'll say, "Ang arte mo! Buti kung ako lang andon!" Sad. Can't you think that we're most at ease with you that's why we're being maarte in front of you? Also, sometimes, it's part of our lambing and we want you to lambingus back! Chizzy.
• (Many ask this one) Haha. Why do you neglect us, or worst, get another girl to replace us for a while, whenever we're showing that you're the only one for us and we're so truly, madly, deeply inlove with you? Then you'lls ay that you're just playing around. Do we deserve this while all we want is for no one to say "Sayang ang batang to!" to you?
• Why do you strictly ask us to cut every connection we have with our EXes but consistently chech your Ex's friendster and multiply account, text her, or worse, sneak to see her and when we discover it, ask us, "Bakit masama ba kami maging friends?" What are you doing? Testing if the love that you've shared is really gone? Testing if your really over her? COWARD thing. Are you afraid to have no one when we finally can get hold of you and give you up? Or worst, you're just so AFRAID to fall in love to protect your macho image or afraid to get hurt. Pity. Sabi nga nila, asa dami ng investment ang dami ng kita.
• why do you agree that COMMUNICATION is vital for our relationship but when we're seriously having a conversation, you don't say all the things you want to say or sometimes, don't tell the truth? Wose, is "Hulaan mo kung ano yon?" Are you nuts at times or just trying to do some alibi?
• Why don't you want us to wear sexy clothes but your eyes are attached to those women in tight sexy clothes while wearing your sunglasses?

      Well, these vary also. Depending on the maturity of guys. =D
      Anyway, we understand that you love video games, bikes, cars, boy's nightout and RESPONSIBILITY at times. Point taken. LOL.
     Just enjoy life, but remember your future. LOL.

Being young a problem? Never!

It was just one ordinary busy day and I wasn’t feeling well because of the cold, rainy weather. I was still overwhelmed of having new shoes from People Are People which I consider as one of my investments since it’s one of my ardent dreams.

Then, shoot! One NOT-SO-GOOD DAY began.

  

I’m assigned to handle the first issue of our magazine, Breaking Free. (Although until now, there are several grey areas in the magazine scene, we’ve already came up with some vital decisions that lessened the vagueness).

I’m tasked to interview freelance writers, lay-out/graphic artists and all those that will be part of the team. I’m physically, emotionally and mentally prepared of everything that will happen during interviews, since the issue of me being “young” and “inexperienced” is at hand.

Yes, maybe in some areas, I can be considered as lucky to have this chance, but hey, I know that He has reasons for putting me into this!

I always choose corporate attires that will make me look older and smarter, choose make up hues which will transform me into a mature missus, makes sure to project a smart image at all times, and practices professional and canny conversation and mentality.

Goodness! It’s not EASY!

Most of the time I’m seeing myself conscious and unaccustomed of the print media industry but I have to keep my focus of proving to all that I am in the position to say what I have to say and that I’m willing to learn from their professional experiences.  The task was given to me alone and I have to discover things on my own. I have the responsibility to make sure to put together everything in the magazine, from articles, lay-out, to printing.

The experience is fun and rewarding! But I’m fully aware of the presence of bullshits. And this is just my lucky day to meet one of them! I interviewed editors from Summit Media and Mabuhay Magazines, but the very intimidating presence of this EIC from a not-so-established magazine affected me bigtime…NEGATIVELY.

He’s a man in his 50’s, who has copies of his published magazine at both hands, with, according to our business manager, gay-ish gestures, high eyebrows upon seeing me walking towards his direction while he was playing with his long slim umbrella.

His eyebrows remained in their high position in his forehead while I was giving an introduction of the company and the magazine. He indirectly showed that he’s underestimating my right to question his experiences while icing me with questions of my company’s stability and the magazine’s effectiveness.

“I’m a UP college graduate, had MA in UP also, and I don’t think your system will work…”

“Well, I’m working with 28 freelance writers at the moment and I’m definitely sure that the system is working…”

Nice interviewee, best example for the yuppies! Haha. (Well, based on my observation, most of the “experienced” so-called professionals, lack respect and demand as if they own the company during interviews than the young professionals--well, because they're amateurs, maybe).

I just can’t fathom why the society considers them professionals...

…if they can’t accept professionally that there are younger people who will sometimes give them rules and limitations?

…if they can’t accept that sometimes, there are situations that maybe in their perspectives, are giving them moral downgrade, but in a better perspective, are just situations that test their strength of character, wisdom and professionalism?

LEARNING IS A LIFE-LONG PROCESS. AND HAS NO SHORTCUTS.

Know-it-alls must be buried. Haha.

My point is, no one has the right to be arrogant on being more intelligent on some things because there are no two people given exact experiences and chances in life…so everyone learns differently.

Being wise doesn’t mean knowing all the facts around the globe, its process includes life experiences and attitude.

Remember, YOUR ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING.

So, do you still think that being young is a problem while everyone's considered to have an attitude?

Good thing, i have a good one. haha. and my company just fortunately saw its goodness...

Bad for him, he was so empty.

To my co-yuppies, LET'S PROVE OURSELVES...

we're not like those empty professionals...

We're born to lead and compete professionaly, with RESPECT.