thoughts. thoughts. thoughts.

My gradeschool teacher said that we have to put a period to a group of words that states a unified thought, for us to indicate that ‘it is done’… ‘ENDED.’

Same with feelings. In some ‘special’ situations. =)

But sometimes, even if we KNOW the right thing or the ways to END it, if the carrying out of the solution comes, they simply vanish one, two or three at a time.

He visited, and everything seemed ‘to be continued…” *sigh*

Public affairs seem to be the discoverer. In a way, Entertainment seems to be influenced by public affairs already with the truth they've discovered. Then, Entertainment makes masterpieces with that truth to make it known to people...for them to put it to practice.

Makes sense.

When you’re in Public Affairs, the downside is everything has to be factual..so you have to work hard to look for interesting issues to address. For commercial reasons, you have to be very keen in research to look for a unique story. In Entertainment, you have to be creative and imaginative. Well,  both are hard if you’ll think about it.

What if you can’t find an interesting story?

Or what if you can’t think of a more creative plot of a series?

*sigh* I’m feeling down. Too much. My self-esteem is getting low. 

Nasa bahay ang puso ko (super mushy entry!)

Home feels good, always. And Easter Sunday brings HOPE, always.

Sabi sa text ni Lloyd Luna, author ng “Is there a job waiting for you?” and “Do you have the life of your own?”…EVERYTHING ends up alright. If it’s not yet alright, then it’s not yet the end."

Maybe that’s why I’m feeling uneasy these days, madami pang hindi “alright.”

But I’m glad that I’m starting to bring back the missing pieces in my self…in my life, the one that was broken and took me months to fix. Good thing, my dreams didn’t fade. Now, I have hopes. And I still have Him to be intrepid.

I missed living my life. Now, I have a clear path to walk on, true people to hold tightly, and a “never-get-tired-of-Cyra” God to be with me all the way. It’s true that you’ll know the true ones during adversaries, not just anniversaries. Hehe. (I’m trying to be humorous, deymn the rhymes. Haha). And when everything’s done and when you’re left with vague choices, you’ll keep your faith and hold Him tight in prayers.

Funny. Totoong nkaka-degrade ang pagiging bum, and then everything follows. Susunud-sunurin ka nang pahirapan ng lahat ng aspeto ng buhay mo. Then, you’ll feel helpless and empty. Parang back to zero kahit alam mo naming hindi. You’ll reach your lowest point. You’ll cry at maaawa ka sa sarili mo. Pipilitin mong isisi sa iba’t ibang bagay o tao sa paligid mo ang mga nangyayari. Dadating ka sa punto na sisihin mo ang kurso mo at ang malawakang palakasan at diskriminasyon na nangyayari sa iyong masusing paghahanap ng trabaho. Dalawang bagay ang pwedeng mangyari: tanggapin mo ang trabahong hindi mo gusto dahil kailangan mo nang may maiabot na pambayad ng kuryente at makalipas ang ilang buwan ay balik sa pagiging unemployed ka uli dahil di mo matagalan ang trabaho o hintayin ang gusto mong trabaho (na di mo alam kung gusto ka rin o kung talagang gusto mo yon) at tumaas ang posisyon makalipas ang ilang buwan pati na rin ang sahod, benefits at tatawagin kang “Ma’m” o “Sir” ng guwardiya na bawat dumadaan ay yon ang tawag nya.

Everything will be alright.

Hay. Buti na lang may pamilyang di nang-iiwan.
Buti na lang may mga tunay na kaibigan.
Buti na lang kahit na madalas problema ang boyfriend, at lagi daw ako nakakasakal kaya wala ako laging surprise, makita lang siya, parang kaya nang labanan ang mga kaaway at sakupin ang buong mundo.

Ang totoo, natatakot ako sa mga susunod na mangyayari…

Takot ako.

Pero kailangan kong harapin. Baka pag nadaanan ko na’to, kunwari na lang di ako duwag, tuluy-tuloy na ang ligaya! Yehey! Hay.

Help me Lord, please.

Are MEN out of the world? Or it's just US?

     I actually just moved this entry from my Multiply blog, and upon reading the entry again, I realized that there were a few good comments. Time flies so fast.


Last week when I was at home, I had a long chat with some of my girlfriends. And there are lot of things that we don't "get" with men.

• When guys impliedly air their level of insecurity with the relationship like "Alam kong dika sanay magseryoso, pero seryoso ako sayo" or "Baka lokohin mo lang ako ah,"we, girls, think that you want us to reassure you that we're serious about you and the relationship. But if we're showing you how much we love you, by consistently caring for you, asking permission from you regarding some stuffs, doing or wearing what you want and permanently registering in unlimited texting service, suddenly, you'll scream "I WANT TO EXPLORE AND FIND MYSELF. I'm losing myself, nakakasakal, I need space."  Where will be our next stand?
• Why can't you admit your mistakes and when someone exaggerates the story, you'll blame and accuse us for being so talkative on things about us, but in reality, we don't say a thing?
• Why are you having a hard time saying SORRY? And most of the time, assuming that we "got" it already? Are we Madame Auring or MAdame Curacha to discern if you're really sorry or just pretending to be?
• why do you get mad with our "kaartehan" in front of you but when we do it in front of others, you'll say, "Ang arte mo! Buti kung ako lang andon!" Sad. Can't you think that we're most at ease with you that's why we're being maarte in front of you? Also, sometimes, it's part of our lambing and we want you to lambingus back! Chizzy.
• (Many ask this one) Haha. Why do you neglect us, or worst, get another girl to replace us for a while, whenever we're showing that you're the only one for us and we're so truly, madly, deeply inlove with you? Then you'lls ay that you're just playing around. Do we deserve this while all we want is for no one to say "Sayang ang batang to!" to you?
• Why do you strictly ask us to cut every connection we have with our EXes but consistently chech your Ex's friendster and multiply account, text her, or worse, sneak to see her and when we discover it, ask us, "Bakit masama ba kami maging friends?" What are you doing? Testing if the love that you've shared is really gone? Testing if your really over her? COWARD thing. Are you afraid to have no one when we finally can get hold of you and give you up? Or worst, you're just so AFRAID to fall in love to protect your macho image or afraid to get hurt. Pity. Sabi nga nila, asa dami ng investment ang dami ng kita.
• why do you agree that COMMUNICATION is vital for our relationship but when we're seriously having a conversation, you don't say all the things you want to say or sometimes, don't tell the truth? Wose, is "Hulaan mo kung ano yon?" Are you nuts at times or just trying to do some alibi?
• Why don't you want us to wear sexy clothes but your eyes are attached to those women in tight sexy clothes while wearing your sunglasses?

      Well, these vary also. Depending on the maturity of guys. =D
      Anyway, we understand that you love video games, bikes, cars, boy's nightout and RESPONSIBILITY at times. Point taken. LOL.
     Just enjoy life, but remember your future. LOL.